tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57936901053474819432024-02-06T18:37:31.864-08:00ellen in L.A.D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.comBlogger98125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-2274640831785156862011-07-05T14:29:00.000-07:002011-07-05T14:49:22.209-07:00I'm Back!, Things are good, 4th of JulySo, 4 months later.... here's an update! <div><br /></div><div>I am definitely back in Nashville now!!!! Back in my old house that I was in before, back with my friends, back with the boyfriend, back with my family close by, and still back to Outback (hopefully not for too much longer though!)</div><div><br /></div><div>Things are good. There was definitely some transition time needed. I didn't realize how much time I was spending by myself in Florida... I had to get used to being intentional with my time management again with friends AND work. It's going really good though. </div><div><br /></div><div>This past weekend felt like a mini-vacation for the 4th of July. All the Buford girls were in town for the first time since September, Brandon and I went to Sparta for a quick trip to see my family all together since I've been back, and then yesterday we had a big grill out at his parent's house with all our friends complete with bubbles, water balloon toss, and sprinkler dancing, and sparklers. It was a great 4th of July. I am blessed.</div><div><br /></div><div>The book my sister wrote that I illustrated for her is now published and in print at Amazon.com and Barnes&Noble.com! I also have my book "Patient As the Moonlight" on it's way to be printed very soon! AND I've also found a potential new job. It's a with a social media design firm. It seems really cool and friendly. It'd be a salary job in a creative field which would be incredible. SO! Fingers crossed and lots of prayers please! Things are happening, even when it seems like they aren't :) God is good. </div><div><br /></div><div>Ell</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-16670772802876959182011-04-10T12:05:00.000-07:002011-04-10T12:22:58.204-07:00Upside down Birds, Shout Out, Good ThingsSitting on the floor of my now, packed-up, Florida bedroom. I am all ready for my big move back home to Tennessee!!! <div><br /></div><div>Speaking of.. yesterday was my last night at my Outback job here in Lakeland, I was telling this one lady about how I was moving back home to Tennessee and she proceeds to say.. "You know why birds fly upside down over Tennessee right?" Knowing I was being baited for something, I could only smile and ask "Why?" She responds, "Because there's nothing worth shitting on there!" Hahahaha I was too shocked to be offended! We laughed and I told her how wonderful it really was there and that's there's plenty worth "shitting on" there in my opinion! (uh you know what I mean...) THEN she said if I'm looking for a nice young man I should look up her nephew, NOT her son mind you, she said he's not very good but her nephew is very nice! haha.... oh I'm going to miss these interesting Lakeland folks. Apparently she is a truck driver and just doesn't like the Nashville traffic (who does?) and therefore dislikes all of Tennessee consequently. I had somehow forgotten about Nashville traffic :/ It's been pretty nice to zip to work in 5 minutes.... probably not going to be the case in Nashy... I'd say being back with all the people I love in exchange for bad traffic is a good trade! ;)</div><div><br /></div><div>In other news.... I've become obsessed with a video game. This hasn't happened since Donkey Kong Country on super nintendo during snow days. But yes, I'm hooked on Just Dance 2. Don't worry, I'm still just as an atrocious dancer as I was before, but now I have even more motivation and fuel to bust some ballin' moves! HA! It's so much fun and a great little workout too! It HAS to make it's way to the Buford at some point :) </div><div><br /></div><div><b>SHOUT OUT</b> to Maggie and Eric who I got to see last week!!! It was soooo good :) I love them and am so thankful for real friendships that can pick up right where they left off! AND for real friends that actually read my blog! ha! </div><div><br /></div><div>Well... I would say I need to go so that I can pack, but I'm basically all done! You know what that means? I ready to come home :) Before that though, I'm completely excited about this week! Good things are yet to come!</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-79281697995179215432011-03-22T06:34:00.001-07:002011-03-22T06:45:52.211-07:00Decaf, Pouty-face, Mini-VacayGood morning from Lakeland, Florida!<div><br /></div><div>I am partially caffeinated up right now... I say partially because lately I've been drinking DECAF! Unbelievable I know! Again, I said partially because I like to cheat and do half decaf half regular, only in the mornings! ;)</div><div><br /></div><div>Soo.... I'm moving. Yes yes...back to Nashville :) I'm very excited about this. I feel like I was on some sort of sabbatical. But now I'm coming back! </div><div><br /></div><div>(NOTE: Dunkin' Donuts does NOT give refills on their coffee....odd.... I guess that's what I get for sneaking that half cup of regular coffee in today!)</div><div><br /></div><div>So, I told my work the other day that I was moving. They were actually surprisingly really bummed! I just thought no one really noticed me there, but now that I'm moving everyone is all pouty faced and telling me how much they'll miss me..... odd.... just like Dunkin' Donuts' no refills. :) ha!</div><div> </div><div>I just downloaded Phoenix's "Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix" yesterday. They're awesome. Just my sort of music to listen to reach optimal productiveness while working on my computer! Next up....Florence + the Machine. </div><div><br /></div><div>Tax refund dollars should come in tomorrow! That's exciting since I've never filed for taxes before! I'm a BIG girl now! I even shop with coupons now! I'm SUCH an adult ;P </div><div><br /></div><div>I've got the next two days off from work... I'm contemplating going some where and staying the night. Maybe St. Petersburg and Clearwater? I hear they're both pretty sweet places! Just might do it! I've never taken a mini vacation by myself!</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-4957006131600356562011-03-05T12:15:00.000-08:002011-03-05T12:32:27.484-08:00Busy, Recluse, 6 WeeksGuess what?! I've actually been BUSY once again in my life!<div><br /></div><div>It's been good to have a job again and have some sort of income :) Outback-ing has been good. I feel like a nincompoop most of the time but then there are other moments where a co-worker says I'm a rockstar and doing great! I'm definitely still learning the ropes though... I get to meet a lot of very different people each day which <i>can</i> be cool :) </div><div><br /></div><div>My body is trying to figure its new schedule though. I WAS getting up at 7 before my job but now, on days like today, I slept till 11! Then I made breakfast...ate it...and took a 2 hour nap!!! I couldn't believe it! No, everyday ISN'T like that, but I sure am exhausted after every night.</div><div><br /></div><div>I took some time today to catch up on all my best friends' blogs. I have the most amazing girls in my life :) You may know us as the Buford. It's tough not being around them, actually it's tough having hardly any friends here at all! I know that sounds pathetic... ha but I do have a great married couple for roommates and our friend Brandon and his wife that live not too far away... but other than that, it's kind of lonesome. That's kind of weird to say since I'm generally really happy as a recluse! I know this is just for a little bit longer though, and it's time that I need to be grateful for and not waste it! </div><div><br /></div><div>So work it is! Stay productive and creative! About 6 more weeks and B is going to fly down to help me move! ALSO.... there might be plans for a day at Disney World in the works!!! :) </div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-782765258188396752011-02-16T15:37:00.000-08:002011-02-16T16:08:10.097-08:00Valentine's, Lucky Girl, Cutest Picture<div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>I just had the BEST weekend in Tennessee...<div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div>First off, the whole reason for me going was </div><div>so that I could attend Dad's retirement party. Which was wonderful! I'm so glad he got to have one, and am so thankful for all the firemen that threw it for him. It really meant a lot to him and it was great to see the thanks and credit given to him that he deserves. </div><div><br /></div><div>Brandon, was able to come to Sparta for the party and then we left the next day to go hang out in Nashville for a few days. Saturday we ran some errands together which included grocery shopping for my Valentine's dinner he was planning on cooking for me the next night! :) Then we met up with his parents for some hibachi!!! Which I'm totally hooked on now... Drove back to the city and had some quality hang out time with </div><div>all our friends at the Buford! Lovely day! </div><div><br /></div><div>Sunday I got up early so that I could go with Brandon and Allie to church at 7:00 am since they were leading worship. I loved getting to spend so much time with them both all afternoon. Then after lunch and casual window shopping in Green Hills we dropped Allie off while B and I went on to hang out at a coffee shop! Man, lots of hang out time!! But it was all so good and exactly what I wanted/needed! </div><div><br /></div><div>THEN! We took off back to Hendersonville to B's parent's house where the Valentine's festivities began!! I'm talking.... surprise flower bouquets, pre-set dinner table, candles, wine! He made mushroom stuffed ravioli with vodka s</div><div>auce, caprese salad with homemade balsamic glaze, and of course all on plated and garnished dishes! Frank Sinatra kept us company the entire evening which might have transitioned into a little dancing :) </div><div><br /></div><div>Yes, I had a very wonderful Valentine's Day. I am a very lucky girl.</div><div><br /></div><div>And all I gave him was a mixed CD! HA!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div>I flew back on Valentine's Day. The airport was a rather sad looking place. What few people were there didn't look too pleased about it. I almost missed my flight! The schedule said it was going to be delayed, so I got starbucks and was sitting in a quieter section of the airport, far from my gate when they make an announcement that my flight was boarding even before it original time! So I'm power walking across the airport and I see my gate as they make a last call for Dorothy Kay to her flight. haha felt like Home Alone! </div><div><br /></div><div>Now I'm back in Lakeland and had my first night of work last night at Outback! Yay for a job!</div><div><br /></div><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjn9BOD7_7pg9X9oGMzYQhIWjvHJoAcwAciRUXYkzXPPMCwc1s7QXeZ27qCXofiAKnkYKZzLQpCJonOw-Eogu3pwEi2JTv6l25NHMJSNW1pujr8czJW3rLXQ3vX23RL1ghBj6Kq9_iyNK4/s320/5424537172_d081057375_b.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5574443070146828370" /><div style="text-align: center;">Ok... isn't this just the CUTEST PICTURE!!!!??!?!?! It makes me so happy!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-72343000443981948302011-02-07T14:16:00.000-08:002011-02-07T14:41:40.161-08:00FIVE, Clockwork, FocusI just feel so happy right now.<div><br /></div><div>And it's not because of Mumford & Sons currently playing, the brownie I just ate, the good conversation I just had with one of my best friends, the cozy drizzly rain outside, or the FIVE letters I just got from my special someone a few states away. </div><div><br /></div><div>Nope. I'm just happy! I was happy before all those things just happened, because my God is in control in the good and bad. </div><div><br /></div><div>That's been a test of mine recently: finding the peace of resting in faith even when schedules begin to pick up, stress is closing in, and things begin to feel like they used to. Peace doesn't have to only happen when schedules are calm. Peace can happen in the busiest and most hectic times in our lives. He's still just as comfortable and calm with what all is going on even if I'm not. Comforting isn't it? God doesn't get flustered when I have a busy schedule. In fact I think it amuses Him to watch me sometimes. I imagine Him watching me run all over the place trying to figure out some complicated gear mechanism LIKE A CLOCK! Yeah! Say I'm inside Big Ben trying to make all the gears turn by pulling on one for a bit, running to another gear, pulling some more, struggling and struggling to make it work, which yeah it might MOVE but it's not working.... Then God stops me... like a cartoon when the giant stops the little man from running by putting his finger on top of his head but the little cartoon man is still running in place before he realizes he's stopped? (welcome to my mind....that's what I picture) So yeah, God stops me from trying to make all the gears work... then ever so gently he taps the pendulum and it sets everything into motion. And I watch, and see how everything is in a certain place for a certain reason, and they all fit together, ticking and turning..... LIKE <i>CLOCKWORK</i>! haha :) </div><div>So don't focus too hard on each gear. Some are a shiny, pretty brass. Then some are big, dirty, and greasy... but they still all work together. </div><div><br /></div><div>Well... I've got some letters to respond to ;)</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-27675771163923115132011-02-06T15:04:00.000-08:002011-02-06T15:31:47.515-08:00Nomad, Super Bowl, HomeI went back and read some of my past blog posts this morning. Starting from when I first moved into the Buford house in Nashville. Man, a lot has changed since then. My life has been basically unsettled for the past 5 years. Went to college, transferred colleges, moved back and forth for 3 years, tornado, moved into apartment, moved to LA, Nashville, from apartment to house in Nashville, and now to Florida. It's become a little exhausting! I've learned a lot in each place though and it's all for a reason :) <div><br /></div><div>ANYWAY reading through my past blogs made me realize how quickly my life changes. I'm thankful for each stage. SO! How about that Super Bowl! Looks like I'm rootin' for the Packers! Yup....I get to go home this week! This is exciting! </div><div><br /></div><div>Well gotta go study a menu for my big test tomorrow! Wish me luck and say a little prayer for me too if you think about it!</div><div><br /></div><div>Enjoy the game!</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-83385760095134106812011-02-03T07:52:00.000-08:002011-02-03T08:13:51.787-08:00Happy, "Work", ProfessionalCan I just say how happy I am doing EXACTLY what I'm doing right now? :) It's a great feeling.<div><br /></div><div>I wake up early and have my time with the Lord, a great start to any day in itself. Then I made some coffee, cleaned my bathroom, got dressed, and sat down to check my email. From there, I was able to go into "work" mode by answering freelance design emails, which is always gratifying to be able to talk in a professional lingo that I went to school for in an applicable, real-life situation. Now, I have a project I can work on for a couple hours, drink my coffee, and listen to Pandora as if I were in an office! Another great aspect of this is that my office can move anywhere, which usually results in any coffee shop within a 5 mile radius!</div><div><br /></div><div>Yes, I'm happy doing what I do. It's important that I realize I am already doing my profession, instead of waiting for something BIG to happen. It's been very gradual, but I need to see that I've made it. I'm a professional graphic designer and illustrator. :) True, I start work at Outback this week, but my heart and therefore my gratification of what I do is in my projects. Outback will just be a job, that honestly I'm kind of excited to start and interact with more people! But it isn't going to be my life. </div><div><br /></div><div>Off to get a refill of coffee! I hope everyone is having a great week so far.</div><div><br /></div><div>Ell</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-18636091292074978732011-01-31T11:08:00.000-08:002011-01-31T11:37:44.822-08:00Michelangelo, Chisel, MasterpieceHow nice it is to feel content...<div><br /></div><div>It's just nice to let go and enjoy being where one is. Forgetting the past while simultaneously remembering who we are. It's like how Michelangelo chiseled away at the stone to reveal the beautiful figures he knew were hidden under the layers of rock. Thankfully I'm not the one manning the chisel. In fact my Sculptor taught Michelangelo everything he knows! :) </div><div><br /></div><div>I guess as a rock it wouldn't be really fun to have rubble slowly chipped away from you in fact it probably hurts, but the end result is a beautiful sculpture that displays the Artist's work for everyone to admire. In fact, I'm sure the rock itself never imagined it could look that magnificent, but the Artist saw it's potential and spent hours and hours working with the rock and just chiseling away. Even the rock's imperfections and natural fault lines are worked into the overall result only to make it even more of a unique masterpiece. </div><div><br /></div><div>Some rocks look down and see all the bits of themselves falling off to the ground and it thinks their world is literally crumbling around him/her, not stopping to think about how much lighter it already feels or to even look up into the confident eyes of the Sculptor. The process takes time though, but the end result is completely worth it and the handiwork the rock strongly displays only glorifies the Artist.</div><div><br /></div><div>Chisel away Lord! :)</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-6583455061242087602011-01-23T12:29:00.000-08:002011-01-23T12:45:25.117-08:00Chipper, Outback, RetirementThe results are in...... the outcome of the audition????? <div><br /></div><div>It's a no go...... yup, didn't make it. But it's REALLY okay! </div><div><br /></div><div>Kelsey (my roomie) came with me for the whole process and can testify first hand to my definite chipper-ness afterwards. Especially when we stopped at Chick Fil A on the way home :) That'll perk anyone up!</div><div><br /></div><div>As I mentioned in my previous post, I'm just glad I actually followed through and went! It's something I've thought about <i>forever</i> and now I can say I've done it! Bravo!</div><div><br /></div><div>Ironically, that same day I also got a call from Outback about whether or not I was still looking for a job! I got to go in the next day for a VERY thorough interview and left as a hired person! SO! I have a job! </div><div><br /></div><div>I've got a lot of menus and drinks to memorize but I have two weeks to study until training begins. So, two weeks then I'm a working girl! I need to make the most of these two weeks. I need to wrap up the majority of my random projects I have going on because hopefully as soon as I start I'll be pretty busy! </div><div><br /></div><div>A week after training though, I'm actually flying back to Tennessee for my Dad's retirement party. I'm really glad I get to make it back for it. It's a big deal to him, PLUS I get to see my boyfriend for at least half of Valentine's Day before I fly back to FL :)</div><div><br /></div><div>Well, I'm going to hop off my computer now and start on some projects. Till next time!</div><div><br /></div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-50068180121843540842011-01-20T08:28:00.001-08:002011-01-20T08:52:34.046-08:00Good Morning, Depressed, Disney PrincessGood Morning!<div><br /></div><div>I'll just dive right in and say that the past week has not been an easy one for me. Just been a lot of questioning and doubting about what my purpose is here in Florida. Each day I've been trying to stay productive looking for jobs and emailing contacts about illustrating and publishing deals. </div><div><br /></div><div>I got to meet a local illustrator who sat down with me over lunch and discussed the logistics of being a professional illustrator. It was all very informative and he gave me great constructive criticism, but in the end I felt very discouraged, because the main point I took from it all was that I can't move forward anymore with my illustrations unless I have money. Money to make prints which can go on display in galleries, money to join guilds and memberships that would get my name out to authors and publishers, basically money to do anything. </div><div><br /></div><div>I was pretty much depressed for the rest of the day and hated that I was depressed, which made me feel even more depressed! (vicious cycle) However, after a good cry to my supportive boyfriend, an unexpected call from a best friend that knows what it is like to be in my exact same position, and numerous emails from friends back home have given me encouragement and a bit of a reality check. Most importantly, it is amazing what the wonders of solid time with God can do. Reading Hebrews and James the past couple days has been the perfect blend of conviction and encouragement. Thank you Lord for your truth and kingdom that cannot be shaken. </div><div><br /></div><div>During this quiet time, I was replaying my original motives for coming out to Florida: Help Jeremy and Kelsey with their production company, yes, finally live in a bedroom again, yes, become a Disney Princess, yes but that was just a silly dream.... right? </div><div><br /></div><div>Well guess what I'm doing today? Auditioning to be Disney Princess.... haha! I know I just put a lot of build up and pressure on this "dream" and that most of you reading this are probably concerned that if I don't get it my little dreaming heart will be crushed once again. But I really don't think that's going to be the case. More than anything I'm already super proud that I'm actually going! I will be able to answer people when I come home, "Yes, I did try the Disney route but it just wasn't meant to be! But at least I tried!" This way there will be no questions or What Ifs. I'm feeling good about the whole thing! :) Win OR Lose. </div><div><br /></div><div>Now! With all that said, I am going to look up some videos on how to dance like a Disney Princess, if you'll excuse me! :)</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-5538098698766468252011-01-13T13:55:00.000-08:002011-01-13T15:08:20.847-08:00Pitiful, Extended Holiday, Wish ListsPitiful... my last post was in November.... <div><br /></div><div>Fortunately my life hasn't been as uneventful as the activity on my blog... ha :)</div><div><br /></div><div>So let's see...since November, I still wasn't able to get a job because no one wanted to hire somebody that was going to be gone 2 weeks of the Holiday Season (which actually turned into 3 weeks). Yes, after going home and thoroughly enjoying myself I decided to add on an extra week to my holiday! So I had nice long break and a good dose of visiting done with my friends and family. (Except for Amelia who took off to Oregon..) but everyone else I'm sure was sick of me!</div><div><br /></div><div>Christmas was great and really really special this year. I'm going to say it was my first actual adult Christmas. This was the first year that there has been a new baby in the family, Little Emma :) It's only going to get better as she grows up too! Also, I had a special guest of my own come this year ;) which was a first for me and very fun to experience sharing Christmas with someone special. Not to mention Santa was very generous this year too! Thanks to Amazon's amazing wish list feature, Santa knew exactly what to get this picky giftee! </div><div><br /></div><div>I think wish lists are a great idea... and not just for Christmas and birthdays either! It's good to have wishes and desires that you vocalize. When you tell people what you want, it becomes more real to you. Sort of how in high school when I had a crush on a guy I didn't like to tell anyone, not even my best friend (much to her chagrin) because then if I told someone it wasn't a nice little secret kept to myself but instead it begins a snowball effect of "ok, what is the next course of action for this, because this person I just told is going to want see progress" haha which is good for some people, but little Ellen was too nervous to ever tell a guy she liked him so she preferred her crushes kept to herself! </div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway...back to wish lists. </div><div><br /></div><div>It's great to know what you want and tell people. I've always wanted to work at Disney. Just about anyone who knows me well knows this, and because they know this they'll ask me about it, which encourages me to take action towards that dream so i'll actually have something to report back. SO! To all you concerned friends of mine out there... I actually applied to Walt Disney World today... haha yes, after YEARS of dreaming I've finally taken an actual step towards it. Cool huh!?</div><div><br /></div><div>The probability of me getting hired is honestly very slim, but still I am proud that I've actually applied and we will see now how it goes! I applied for Costuming, which would be helping out with the wardrobe department and taking care of all those amazing costumes!!! We will see how it goes! </div><div><br /></div><div>I'm tired of typing so I'll hopefully update again soon and not 2 months from now! Bye!</div><div><br /></div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-35507114198643391632010-11-25T21:49:00.000-08:002010-11-25T22:19:55.743-08:00Happy ThanksgivingHappy Thanksgiving, Everyone!<div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>It is currently 12:50 AM.... I am sitting in Starbucks, listening to some easy jazz Christmas music, and watching the crazy Black Friday shoppers file in to get their charge of caffeine before the madness ensues. </div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>I feel like I'm about to pass out myself, but I told my roomie, Kelsey, that I'd come keep her company during her overnight shift at Starbucks tonight. There's no way I'm staying up ALL night, but we'll see how far I get. </div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Thanksgiving was surprisingly very enjoyable this year. I say that because I wasn't expecting it to be, at all (no offense roommates) I just hate missing the tradition laden holidays away from my family, BUT This is was I did...</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Kelsey and I woke up around 9:00 am and immediately tuned into the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade while I began to dish out some scrumptious.....scrumptious....wow....i can't remember the name of the classic breakfast dish I..... FRENCH TOAST.... I was saying french bread over and over in my head and I knew that wasn't right. SO yes, I began to dish out some scrumptious <b><i>french toast</i></b> while we sipped coffee in our pj's.</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>That soon transitioned into baking a pumpkin pie, prepping the turkey, and some Purina Dog Show. The last part didn't last long, so we turned on Swan Princess instead. The next few hours were all about cooking the food. Kelsey was surprisingly very knowledgeable about how to properly cook a turkey, which I was excited to learn! I made the potatoes, heated the green beans, set up our fabulous card table... <b>TIME OUT.... perks of having a friend that works in the coffee shop you frequent: moments like these when she amazingly hands you a glorious <i>chai tea egg nog iced latte (aka cheggnogg)</i>....seriously, the best drink i've ever had here. TIME IN...</b> set up card table, placed dishes on said table and shortly after enjoyed an amazing Thanksgiving dinner! I was seriously proud of the work Kelsey and I did! Jeremy was pleased too. </div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>After that we went to our friend Brandon's mother-in-law's house for ANOTHER dinner which was also amazing, but unnecessary, but STILL fun to hang out and play cards together. </div><div>Now I'm here! Welcoming the Christmas season with open arms already with Christmas carols ringing in my ears! (Literally...this song is all ringing bells right now)</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Lakeland is going pretty well so far. Not a lot happening yet, but I'm trying to stay busy with my own personal projects I've got going, that could be awesome in the long run. I'm also do a lot of research of film opportunities in the area. Like the Tampa/Orland film commission which posts a lot of job listings and film crew opportunities. So! If I see something that is applicable I will not hesitate to apply! However, I think my chance for grabbing seasonal job is dwindling. Especially since I'm going to be gone 2 of the busiest weeks of the Season since I'm coming home to Tennessee for Christmas! That's right! 17th-2nd I'll be home!!!!! I'm excited :)</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>I'm taking it as a sign that since I haven't been able to grab a serving/coffee shop job around here, that it's not what I'm supposed to do. If God wants me to just concentrate on my random side projects then that's what I'll do and maybe they'll pay off someday! Or not! :D </div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>No worries folks, Disney is still on the docket! Once you apply for a job with Disney you can't re-apply for 6 months. So I'm going to wait till after Christmas and apply then! More about that later though. For now it's going to be all about the Holidays! </div><div><br /></div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-74182743138886645322010-11-17T14:38:00.000-08:002010-11-17T14:55:21.876-08:00Time For a Refill!Greetings from Florida!<div><br /></div><div>I'm all settled in and officially a Lakeland, Florida resident now! </div><div><br /></div><div>I got back from my cruise on Friday the 12th. It was a good trip! I had never done a cruise before so I really excited to get to experience that. I've decided I like traveling by boat! Even though I was surrounded by an overload of touristy....crap.... it still felt neat to be participating in such an original form of travel. I liked seeing the open water, such a sense of adventure!</div><div><br /></div><div>So now I've been in Lakeland for about 5 days now, and so far so good! Kelsey and Jeremy are great to live with. It feels like there was no lag in our friendship since I last saw them over a year ago! </div><div><br /></div><div>Things are going really well, and I need to keep reminding myself that I haven't even been here a full week yet. I need to just enjoy relaxing and hanging out before things DO take off and I have a crazy schedule once more. </div><div><br /></div><div>It has been amazing though to finally be able to sleep in as long as I need and actually have a door to a bedroom that I can close if I need some quiet. I sound like such a recluse! I really do like people! That's just how I recharge and refresh, which is exactly what I'm needing right now.</div><div><br /></div><div>The hardest part right now is just missing everyone. This is two years in a row now that I haven't been around home during my favorite time of year. Fortunately I get to go home for Christmas, but it's the leading up to it that is so wonderful too. Lakeland has it's charms too though! There's actually an awesome downtown area that's really cute and fun to walk through! I can't wait for people to come visit! </div><div><br /></div><div>Well my coffee is getting cool, time for a refill! </div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-21105026902158747642010-11-01T10:38:00.000-07:002010-11-01T10:53:12.486-07:00busy busy dizzy :)Holy macaroni.....it's time for an update. <div><br /></div><div>1. It's November now</div><div>2. I have a boyfriend</div><div>3. I move to Florida in 2 days</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I don't even know what to say right now. Things have been such a complete whirlwind this past month....</div><div><br /></div><div>Fall in Tennessee is amazing. It's funny that this time last year I was pining over missing Autumn while I was in LA. Now that I'm here I'm trying to soak it all up before I leave again! Florida time is almost here!! I spent about 4 days at home last week going through all of my </div><div>belongings just sorting out what stays, goes, and is tossed. I've accumulated quite a bit of stuff! It's an exciting feeling though being all packed up and ready to go ANYWHERE. I'm ready for Florida. I'm really really excited about what I'll be getting into even though that isn't exactly clear yet. I just know I was made to create and that's what I'll be doing down there! </div><div><br /></div><div>I also now have an amazing guy in my life that is totally supporting my move and encouraging me to pursue my dreams. It's all very exciting :)</div><div><br /></div><div>So here's the game plan:</div><div>Wednesday: Drive to Sparta, spend the night/say goodbye to the parents</div><div>Thursday: Leave in the morning for Chattanooga, spend the day/night with brother & sis in law</div><div>Friday: Hit the road early in the morning for the rest of the drive to Lakeland, Florida! </div><div>Saturday: Unpack</div><div>Sunday: Drive to Fort Lauderdale, meet up with crew to volunteer on a cruise ship for a week! (FREE CRUISE!)</div><div><br /></div><div>busy busy dizzy....but ALL amazing things brought together by our loving Lord. He's so good :)</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-57676782465579965292010-10-03T13:16:00.000-07:002010-10-03T13:34:41.617-07:00Speaking Of....It's OCTOBER..... oh my gosh...where has the time gone!? My mind has forgotten what it feels like to think and my body has forgotten what it feels like to sleep.... I feel fried... That may also be in part that I just got off work. <div><br /></div><div>Speaking of work though, I turned in my 2 weeks notice this past Wednesday...I'm almost done at Provence! It's been a really great place for me these past few months but I'll be honest...I'm really looking forward to not having to open the store at 6 anymore. I feel like there could have been a whole lot wittier line inserted there just then...</div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway...baby Emma is doing great...I can't wait to see her in a few weeks when I go home for a pre- Thanksgiving thanksgiving weekend with the fam since I won't be around for actual Thanksgiving. A Fall Weekend extraordinaire where I get to do all of our Kay Family Fall traditions in one weekend! Like chopping wood, watching football, eating green chili, carving pumpkins, pumpkin pie, apple cider, and of course....T-GIVING DINNER! It's gonna be good. </div><div><br /></div><div>Speaking of good (lol) .... I have become awesome at guitar! hahaha (no sleep right now) ok I'm not awesome but I picked it up last week and haven't really been able to put it down. My left hand feels like I have plastic caps glued to the tops of my fingers which makes navigating my touchscreen phone even MORE difficult than it normally is. (BTW I just totally accidentally typed MEOW instead of MORE just then....I have NO clue how my fingers thought they were spelling "more" lol cracked myself up...)</div><div><br /></div><div>You know what? I'm going to stop writing now. This isn't really making much sense! Time for a Sunday nap....or a cat nap MEOW! LOL </div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-84426924537605121322010-09-16T10:08:00.001-07:002010-09-16T10:20:55.171-07:00Comprehensive Fall and New OrlandoHere's something funny... I kind of forgot that this blog has a link on the Union website for all the film students to follow while I was out in LA. I'm sure it was informative for them while I was out there and actually posting about the various things I did there...but since then my blog has kind of been one long tangent about just random life stuff....aka my middle school journal posts! ha! mind you...there is STILL a link to my college website for all to see! lol...oh me....anyway at least my blog will be taking a turn BACK to film topics once I move to Florida. <div><br /></div><div>Tomorrow it will be exactly 8 weeks till I move....that's 56 days.... wow.... I'm so excited and pumped about going, but I also want to make sure I use my time left here really well. </div><div><br /></div><div>I think my family and I are going to have a comprehensive Fall celebration at home. Complete with a Thanksgiving dinner, wood chopping, football games, green chili, and maybe even some mistletoe shooting (that's technically a Christmas activity, but I just really love it)</div><div><br /></div><div>Hopefully I'll get to come back home fairly often though. There's a smaller airline in Chattanooga that does direct flights to Orlando for like $30-$50 or even $10 if you catch it early enough! Cool huh!? </div><div><br /></div><div>This weekend is, my little roommate, Ashley's wedding. I'm so happy for her. It's going to be so beautiful and unique. Like her! Then she moves to New Zealand and then another roommate, Kim, moves to New York on Tuesday...everyone is moving to literally "NEW" places.... I think I'll start saying New Orlando from now on just to fit in...</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-57272140835060696352010-09-04T16:48:00.000-07:002010-09-04T16:59:10.776-07:00Animal-crack-tella, crafts, Little MermaidAnyone ever tried chocolate animal crackers dipped in nutella???? de. lic. ious.... try it.<div><br /></div><div>Moving on....</div><div><br /></div><div>Today was perfectly splendid (after I got off work of course) so... let me rephrase... my day from 3 o'clock on was perfectly splendid! I walk outside to the most perfect temperature degree outside has ever known! I drive home with the windows down (partly because my AC is broken, but why put a damper on my story?) I voluntarily CHOSE to drive home with the windows down, arrived at the house, greeted one of the roomies, then immediately set up camp on my back porch for arts and crafts time! I'm talking card board, scissors, modge podge, paper mache, and creative juices! I can't tell you right now what exactly I was making... it's a surprise, but I'll post a picture later!</div><div><br /></div><div>My point is, is just felt good to make something crafty with my hands... doesn't happen as often as I would like... NOW I'm going to make some dinner and then the roomies and I are going BACK onto the porch where we're going to project "The Little Mermaid" onto our garage and watch it outside!!! So excited!</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-81451972869236704812010-08-28T11:59:00.000-07:002010-08-28T12:15:44.132-07:00Baby Emma Kathryn Rager<div style="text-align: center;">I'M AN AUNT!!!! This is baby Emma Kathryn Rager :) she was born on August 25 around 10:30 and was 6lbs 5 oz and 20 inches long........ we're going to be best friends.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtByhg-2h43jdqHYh8kl2YGwWoiDQMcfd5LI0tsWGc6q2Svgy9FSHZQXw-6U0zfJ6jBkfoLbpj58tefUv4LZYbb5ha4Qj_3424ySt7Zi5HuOscQiGhAukfsaEyEpAHCIiXJchGtPV2ve4/s1600/IMAG0045.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 191px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtByhg-2h43jdqHYh8kl2YGwWoiDQMcfd5LI0tsWGc6q2Svgy9FSHZQXw-6U0zfJ6jBkfoLbpj58tefUv4LZYbb5ha4Qj_3424ySt7Zi5HuOscQiGhAukfsaEyEpAHCIiXJchGtPV2ve4/s320/IMAG0045.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5510537722872219106" /></a><br /><div>I'm in Jackson right now with my sister and the new baby. She's napping and the baby is in the nursery. I got to hold her though (obvi) and I surprisingly loved it! I'm normally terrified of babies but with baby Em it was just instant comfort and love.... :) so happy to have her in our family now! She's so precious! </div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-72595450447594058852010-08-19T12:28:00.000-07:002010-08-19T13:05:08.031-07:00Ellen in FloridaWell everyone... I have some exciting news. I am moving to Florida! That's right! Here's what happened....<div><br /></div><div>A couple weeks ago...I received an email from a couple of my great friends Jeremy and Kelsey from LA. The email was titled "A Potentially Life Changing Email" and basically... it was. They basically said that no matter what they are moving from Las Vegas to Florida at the beginning of November and they would love for me to join them and really work on building the dream of running our own production company! </div><div><br /></div><div>Jeremy writes, Kelsey produces, our friend Brandon who already lives there is a videographer, and I would do production and set design like I've been dying to do since I left LA. WELL.... I wanted to give this whole thing lots of thought and prayer just to make sure I wasn't going to rush into something just because it's available but rather because I'm really supposed to go. </div><div><br /></div><div>So during the course of the next few weeks....Florida and Orlando just began appearing EVERYWHERE! At work, one of my co-worker's brother just moved there, another just got accepted to seminary school there, and another is going to flight school there....then about 10 other random connections and serendipitous encounters with Florida. So, I was basically thinking about it all the time and weighing the pros and cons. </div><div><br /></div><div>This past Monday night I went to a worship service I've been regularly attending called Emanate in Franklin, TN.....it is just an awesome solid time to really connect with the Spirit and worship the Father.... so the whole time during worship Florida was just really in the forefront of my mind and so I felt like the idea was really being presented to God, and the whole time I just had no doubt in my mind that this was right and basically there is no option for me to not go. :)</div><div><br /></div><div>Tuesday I started telling my close friends and family who were all very supportive and excited for me.....except my roommates. They said that ever since I mentioned it a couple weeks ago that they knew I would go! lol oh how well they know me :) </div><div><br /></div><div>So yeah! I'm really excited to have a goal to shoot for now and especially because I know it's where I'm supposed to go. Jeremy, Kelsey, and Brandon are just so creative and amazing, it'll be great to be back in that creative environment where we'll push and encourage each other. It's really going to be great :)</div><div><br /></div><div>This will be another transition from Ellen in LA to Ellen in Nashville and now to Ellen in Florida! Let the new chapter begin!</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-11564017095393465342010-07-25T14:49:00.000-07:002010-07-25T15:18:46.442-07:00Best Birthday EverTime is flying by.... I just scanned through my icalendar and saw just how busy and full my schedule has been. It's all been awesome stuff too! <div><br /></div><div>After my last week at Anthropologie I went to Pennsylvania with Andrea so I could spend the week all my sister-in-law's extended family! random huh?! but really so much fun :) Gotta love those Jacobson's! </div><div><br /></div><div>A few days later....I have the best birthday of my life. LOL It almost sounds like I'm kidding but I'm not! Maybe I should say adult life, though, because my 7th birthday when I got a bike AND puppy surprise was pretty dang sweet. But of my adult life...this one takes the <b>cake</b>! HA! (get it?!)</div><div><br /></div><div> It seriously was awesome. First off...it started with no expectations or plans for the day... so the night before, Allie, Jessica, Kim, Brandon, and I go out on the boat with our friend Ben in Hendersonville. I had never been on a boat at night and let me tell you....it was GORGEOUS! The moon was huge and reflecting off the water and all the stars were out too... I loved it. So we kicked off my birthday floating on the water and stayed out till about 3 am. I didn't get to bed till 4 but then had to wake up at 5 to go open up Provence. That kind of hurt a little, but then a guy I work with came in at 8 to cover the rest of the day for me since it was my special day! SO after I get off, I meet up with the lovely Ashley Hamilton for a scrumptious brunch and hang out time at Fiddlecakes. Next, it was back out to the lake for me to meet up with my boating crew again from the night before. We go out on the water for some hardcore tubing and sun soaking! Once back on land, we girls went out to eat Chick Fil A for lunch, have a Miley Cyrus shopping spree at Wal-Mart, and take a nap at the house (which would add up to only my 2nd hour of sleep so far). After we all awake it's time to get dolled up for dinner at the Marina including outside deck seating, swooping Christmas lights, and live music....which then turned into Allie joining said live music on stage where I received an AWESOME happy birthday duet! At this point my eyes were already filling up with pure watery happiness just over what a great day and amazing friends I have...thinking my day couldn't get any better.....but it did. We came home to the Buford, I walk in, the lights are off and I think Emily is just having a relaxing evening after she got off work, when I turn the corner to see candlelit cupcakes and all my friends shouting Happy Birthday!!!! There were decorations hanging from the ceiling and walls and the cupcakes were of Princess Tiana! DISNEY! Emily gave me her present which was a case of bottled cream sodas, dark chocolate, AND FRIENDS season 8!!!!! THENNNNNN as if my love tank wasn't already overflowing, they all take me out for a late night showing of "Inception" which was AMAZING.............SO GOOD. </div><div><br /></div><div>That was where I finished out my last hour of July 20, 2010. I can't get over how great it was. Thanks to my wonderful friends who really knew me well enough to make my day so awesome :) :) :) I'm so pumped about being 23 now. This year is seriously going to be great. I just know.</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-21208874413906122982010-07-07T12:44:00.000-07:002010-07-07T12:58:50.919-07:00Beach, Quit, Movedwow...it's already been a month since I last updated? insane. goodness I don't even know where to start then....<div><br /></div><div>June 18-27 I was on vacation with the family in Orange Beach, Alabama! I had been looking forward to it for SO long. I loved it. We were in a condo right on the beach overlooking the ocean, so each of my mornings was spent on the balcony watching the sun rise. So good. Unfortunately, the big oil spill had just started to make it's way to that beach, so about halfway through the week a storm really stirred up the water and washed a lot of oil ashore. It was so sad to see. We still had a great time though and everyone enjoyed my board game I made "Kay Family Scene It!" </div><div><br /></div><div>Being there only reaffirmed in my mind that I want to live on a beach somewhere for at least a short season in my life. We'll see how that works out ;)</div><div><br /></div><div>After I got back, I resumed work at Provence and Anthropologie....and it really kind of hit me just how much I wasn't enjoying my Anthro job as much as I thought I did. That, plus I've had almost no time to work on any graphic design projects, and Erin wants me to illustrate her children's book that she is writing. So, I decided it was time to go. I'll still be working at Provence and hopefully get a few more hours there, but if I'm wanting my graphic design stuff to go anywhere I need to dedicate more time to it! Which is what I'll do!</div><div><br /></div><div>Let's see... vacation, quit my job, oh yes, I moved! Yup, Emily and I moved in with Jessica, Allie, and Kim to the Buford house which is about 5 minutes from Provence and right next to downtown Nashville! Cool huh! I currently don't have a bedroom, so my bed is in the living room, but it somehow works! We've all been really having a lot of fun this past week and I think it is going to work out great for us. Plus I just love that I actually live in a house again, I haven't done that since I lived at home! </div><div><br /></div><div>Things are going pretty dern good. I've really been learning a lot and still have a ton to go. But this time and place I'm at right now couldn't be more perfect :)</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-23380966804255742692010-06-10T04:36:00.000-07:002010-06-10T04:49:51.894-07:00Not Scheduled, Indefinitely, FreelanceGood Morning.... so.... it is currently 6:37 am on Thursday morning. By this time I was planning on having Provence (the coffee shop) in the finishing stages of getting ready to open. WELL turns out that when I got here at 5:50.....I wasn't scheduled to open! Yup....so I'm just sitting here watching the sun get higher and trying to decide what I'm going to do for the rest of the day. It's actually kind of a nice surprise I just can't help but be a little sad I didn't sleep more. oh well!! ;)<div><br /></div><div>So....an update for what's been going on!</div><div><br /></div><div>Nashville has surprisingly started to grow on me, which is a good thing since it looks like I'm going to be here indefinitely. Indefinitely is actually a good word for me in general right now. Nothing is really for sure as far as planning my life goes. I am certain though that everything is going to come together in a much better way than I could ever design, so I'm not stressing! </div><div><br /></div><div>Working at Provence and Anthropologie is going pretty good! or WELL, as my mother would say. I like Provence a lot (except when I show up when I'm not needed) and I'm just now starting to get the hang of thing at Anthro so yeah...I think I'm in for a good summer. </div><div><br /></div><div>ALSO I've been able to do some freelance graphic design work for a few of my musician friends already and just got asked to do another "gig" for someone else now! I'm kind of excited about it. The stuff I've made for them has been getting good reviews so maybe my name will get passed around some! </div><div><br /></div><div>Alrighty....I think I may go grab a bagel at Panera and then maybe do some shopping I feel like all my clothes are falling apart. ha! ok have a good day!!!</div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-51193922439306561852010-05-13T14:02:00.001-07:002010-05-13T14:16:29.479-07:00I'm weird.I'm in a really weird mood right now. It's not even my normal weird. It's a whole lot more existentialist and grander weird. Let me try to explain....<div><br /></div><div>I feel very full of life... and with that I am beginning to realize how precious life is. Ha....yes, this is going to be a weirdly deep post. </div><div><br /></div><div>I'm turning 23 this year. This is the first time I've ever wished I could slam on the brakes of growing older and take a minute to reassess everything. 23 is still really young as an adult, but really old for a child. So in a sense I am just a baby adult. The world is totally new to me now in a different way. Instead of being guided in everything I do, I am now the one making my life choices. With that knowledge I know there a lot of potential with what I choose to do (or don't do). There is so much I want to see and do; I want to start DOING it all now and not wish I had 30 years from now. I just have no clue where to start....</div><div><br /></div><div>I am basically just feeling really overwhelmed with life. God has blessed me with so much love and freedom I just want to be able to use who I am to the best of my potential. I made a awesome kid (haha).... now I just want to be a great adult. </div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5793690105347481943.post-4265755288691744312010-05-11T21:35:00.000-07:002010-05-11T21:44:14.405-07:004:50, Ouch, Beeeddddd.....I am so tired. SO tired I am yawning as I write this....<div><br /></div><div>I've been working QUITE a bit the past couple days. All of them starting with my alarm going off at 4:50 am. That was not a type....i repeat 4:50 am. Mainly that is to give me a 10 minute wake up buffer till 5:00 where I actually have to be out of bed, get ready, and be at work at 6:00. Getting out of bed is the hardest part, but once I get going it's really not that bad. I find playing some jazz helps me. Then working at Provence goes by kind of quickly I think. Which is nice. Today like Sunday was a double shift though. So it was 6-1 at Provence then 1-6 at Anthropologie. Ouch.</div><div><br /></div><div>Yeah I'm super tired, but I think I'm really going to like working both places. They're a good mix for me. Artsy and Chill. Plus I'm feeling super productive. Whereas before, I just felt like I was wasting time in between my Anthro shifts. </div><div><br /></div><div>Alright, well I'm going to beeeeedddddd....... . . .. .... . . </div>D. Ellenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646148701058557936noreply@blogger.com0